Almost

I almost deleted this blog due to lack of activity but then I read through my previous blog posts and I felt happy remembering my daughters' antics, our adventures in Singapore. So, it's just right for me to document our adventures here in Australia. I will try to remember our last few months in Singapore and document it. It feels good to be fickle minded!

Great Expectations

Almost 2 months have passed... Busy is an overused word but I was. Went overseas for conference, went Down Under for our first entry and left our dear Pre, and 3 out of 4 birthdays have passed... Whew... To top that, most of my weekends are spent upgrading servers and firefighting with another team for things that have been missed out. Whew...

The good thing is... It's almost over and I have my VERY BIG BUCKET ready for blessings... The upgrades will be over soon and there will be some semblance to normalcy at work. And we're believing for that huge blessing soon. The problem was we are hoping yet we're not believing that it will happen. The Lord has spoken. It's time to believe. I am excited!

Dalagita

For the past few months, we've been noticing changes in Dawter T. And, yes, I am referring to the changes that a girl undergoes. She was embarrased when I told her that she might need training b's soon.

She's doing well with her extra curriculars at school. Her form teacher recommended her as prefect and she went for an interview 2-3 weeks ago. She felt bad after and she told me her answers :

Dawter T : I don't think they'll pick me.

Me : Why?

Dawter T : Because of my answer to one question.

Me : It's just one question, for sure they will take into consideration your other answers. (she still look unconvinced and I can see that she really wanted to be one) What's the question and what's your answer?

Dawter T : The question was there was one girl (all girls ang school niya) who threw up on school grounds. What will you do? My answer was I will call the cleaner and bring the girl to the general office. But, the interviewer asked me what if the auntie is not around? So I answered, I will cover it with newspaper or paper. But, she asked me what if there's no newspaper?

Me : What did you say?

Dawter T : Don't laugh ok. I said I will cover it with my hanky.

And I laughed. Bad Mommy! Very Bad Mommy!!!

Me : Hmmm, ate, that might not be a good answer.

Dawter T : I know! That's why I told you I won't get in. My friend's answer was better, I should have answered that. She said, she will put a chair near it so that nobody will accidentally step on it.

Me : Yes, that's a good answer. But, ate, being a prefect doesn't define you (mommy moment). And you still have other things in school, you are math and PE monitress.

Dawter T : Yeah but that's not a big deal.

Grrrr... Mukhang gusto talaga maging prefect.

Me : Well, it's done and over. You just wait and see. I told you that nothing is impossible if you pray. If you want something and God thinks it's good for you, He will give it to you. (mommy moment again) So don't be sad anymore.

After a few weeks. I came home and Dawter T asked me to close my eyes.

Me : Why?

Dawter T : Just close your eyes. (after a moment) Now, open your eyes.

She showed me a pin --- "Trainee Prefect" pin!

Me : Wow, ate! Congratulations! Ang galing mo naman! (anak ko yan and this is my blog hahaha)

Dawter T : My friend has 3 pins - class monitor, Most courteous and Trainee Prefect. I only have 2 - Most courteous and Trainee Prefect!

Me : I will give you another one. The girl who has no satisfaction! What did I tell you? Don't compare yourself with others.

Hehehe... Ang kulit, super competitive!

Anyways, she was so happy and she wears it proudly on her uniform. We asked her not to bully anyone but be nice to the other girls. Not to be boastful and be humble.

Bebi A Is No Longer A Bebi

During my younger years, I associated my grandparents' travel to the US to gifts and more gifts they will bring home to me. It's so funny that it's also Bebi A's perception. When I told her that I will be going again, she was momentarily sad but exclaimed, "Wow, you will have lots of gifts for me when you come back!" What a spoiled rotten kid! So, last night, she told me she wants a KEN (and another Barbie!). She said she have lots of Barbie's but no Ken. She wants them to kiss and marry! OMG! Huhuhu... I was surprised and a bit worried, like I want to stop the time! Or, tell her that Ken is not for sale!

Bebi A seemed more kikay to me than her ate. She's very vocal with her crushes. The flame at the moment is Bruno Mars. She knows his songs and argues with her ate about the lyrics. Young love. Hahaha... Her previous crush was a classmate but she was turned off when she found out that this boy doesn't take a bath in the morning. Hahaha... At least naman, di malalahian ng mabaho!

Claim And Believe

Lately, I've been in a black mood. You can even read about it from my previous posts. Since April came in, it seemed like I am strugging to keep it together, at home, at work and even at "play".

It could be because of my long list of TO DOs... Which instead of getting shorter, it just seemed getting longer and longer. The "kiasu" in me wants to have to the list trimmed down so that I can breathe. And, it's not happening.

Anyway... I finally acknowledged to myself that I cannot do it --- ALONE. I uttered a simple prayer while I was in bus travelling to work. "Lord, turn my life around, even a tiny bit".

After that, I called Ate A and asked her to prepare. We're going to OZ embassy to get her visa. I was thinking that I haven't prayed enough, haven't asked the Lord enough for one wish to be granted. *insert smile here hehehe*

While at work, I printed all the necessary documents and asked for time-off. Rushed to OZ embassy, there were a few people... I commented to Ate A that at the US embassy, there are more people applying for visa. Anyway, we finished the form by 1130AM and queued. They called our number by around 1145 and we found ourselves in front of the immigration officer. The officer was very nice, when he asked how long Ate A has been with us, I had this feeling that everything will turn out fine. And it was, at around 1205, Ate A had her visa!

Oki, though we were very happy about the visa... We became worried at the minutes passed by. Bebi A will be coming in at 1230 and we don't think we'll be able to meet her. The bus uncle and aunty were not picking up the phone, our Pinoy neighbor was not around... We were really panicking!!! As soon as we saw our block, we rushed to our flat and saw Bebi A standing outside. All ALONE!!! My heart was beating fast! But she just smiled at me and greeted me with a sweet smile. She said she was fine but she was a bit sheepish when she told me "I had to pee, Mommy! I couldn't hold it. I peed near the trash chute!" Hahahaha... Anyway, we poured water over it but commended Bebi A for her presence of mind. I am just happy she's safe.

Thank you, Lord for yesterday... It did turn my day around... And, it also shortened my list by one... *wink*

I am off to work-packed weekend but I know that everything will turn out GOOD because GOD has already blessed me. I claim it and I believe it!

What's Ahead?

I am feeling more and more anxious as the day comes near. It's a month and a day till our initial entry. And, it's 7 days after when we leave Pre behind. It's definitely a big change! And we rest our cares with the Big Bro! It's just that Pre will miss a lot of happenings :

1. Bebi A's 6th birthday
2. His birthday
3. My birthday
4. Dawter T's 9th birthday
5. Dawter T's first communion
6. Bebi A's graduation

and a lot more. Sabi nga niya, "tiis tiis muna". I know it'll be harder for him, he's all alone there with just our friends for company. Friends with kids who will remind him of the girls.

There are times when I ask why we need to go through with this. But, the answer is always IT'S HIS PLAN. And, that's just what I should remember. We almost gave up on this yet He still gave us an affirmative answer with a very explicit sign. What more should I ask? Why question?

We'll cross the bridge when we get there. (In our case, we'll cross an ocean).

Good Friday

We went to our usualy "Bisita Iglesia" (church visits). I am bit nostalgic that this could be the last year that we're visiting these churches here in Singapore. Moving on, we ended up at our parish --- St. Mary's. It's nice that I could get Dawter T to read the prayers though she's like an old lady who constantly needs to sit down hahaha As expected, it rained in the afternoon.

I needed to write today. I planned to scrapbook but couldn't find the right papers yet. And, I am in a fix. I don't feel good at the moment. Hopefully, this will go away. Life has been giving me a lot to think about --- about being a better wife, a good mother, loving daughter and sister, dependable friend, a responsible employee and all the other roles I play in my life.

One of those roles has been bugging me so much lately and I feel that I am getting tired. How I wish I can just start over and was different from the get-go. Things will probably be different. I guess I am mostly to blame... This was something I've been pondering today being Good Friday... Should I continue and just be more patient since things will be different soon? Hmmm... This is really putting a BIG block in my heart. Everyday is a struggle to try to keep my eyes close, my mouth mum, my heart to love. I know the key to all these --- Humility. I have a lot to work on.

We are blessed that the Lord is humble that He took that cross for us. That his eyes are open looking at us. His mouth full of loving words. His heart with so much LOVE --- that He died on the cross for us to have salvation.