Mind of a fickle

turned 11 today. Happy Birthday, Dear K! He's my cousin, one of Tita E's son whom I babysat when he was still young. Love, love this boy! I used to sing YOU by Karen Carpenter to him and he'll fall asleep (maybe he doesn't want to hear me sing! hmp!)

Recycle. Happy Earth Day!

"My friend, there is nothing left for you to do, but everything for you to believe. Don’t try to work for your covenant blessings. Rest in the Son’s finished work and receive them by faith!" From New Creation's church Daily Devotional (Pastor Prince) - 22 April 2008

Life is too short to waste on "what ifs" and regrets. It shouldn't be about the material things. It should be about the Voice From Above telling you to jump. When He does instruct you, you should just do it. No matter how uncomfortable it's gonna be.

Cousin R sent me some pics from her 4th birthday. She's such a cute kid! But, what rocked me here is my cousing J (far right) --- look at the slippers he's wearing --- pink! Mind you, when you see him now, he's totally NOT on the other side (if you get what I mean!) As for me, I am wondering if this was the year when my they cut my bangs very, very short! I just look like Bebi A, I was telling Sister C that this is probably the image of Bebi A when she grows a bit more. Another startling discovery, we often say that Dawter T is from Pre's side of the family. But, in this picture of Sister C, the eyes and the expression just looks like Dawter T. Look at the egg trays there. Those were not hard boiled eggs but inside those egg shells were the yummiest gelatin made by Lola C. I miss those too! One of these days, I will ask her how those were made. Hehe. I miss my brother and my cousins! And, I miss being this young!

There are days when I want to give up this blog! Those "one fine days" and when you read your blog, it actually gets you down again. For the simple reason that, it became a rant area. Writing has always been an outlet. And, I think it will always be. It was actually a first love. Back to the days when I write for the school paper (Filipino section hahaha). I express more when I write that's why a concerned friend asked how come I am willing to share these stories, these feeling with other people. I just want to. I guess. I have always been shy, I am not the type to mingle on our first meeting. I will probably stand there, aloof, wondering if you're all thinking that I am mataray hahaha I just can't helped it. Sometimes if I am not with a friend, I would rather stay at home. This blog makes me happy. This blog is my duct when tears can't seem to flow. Or, my album to keep my memories. It has become a diary of some sort. I just hope it doesn't...

It started in the morning. I was late (as always), I just came in and heard my desk phone ringing, I run to catch but to no avail. So I dialed our department secretary's number. It was not her but I got scolded for being late today and yesterday hahaha I was kinda pissed with the thought of its double standardness (is there such a word?), she who came in at 1215pm has the gal to tell me that she didn't take her lunch thus she know that me and my friends came in very late. So I just hmmmed and ahhhed. I tried not to let it get to me but the thing is, my day didn't start out right. Later that morning, she called me again to inform me that my boss has instructed her to print my weekly reports. And she just wants to let know --- that my boss is watching me! Excuseeeeeeeeee me! She later on asked about my teammate A and told me what the new manager said, blah blah, I told her to ask me directly since the new manager is not the one communicating with A. Of all the thing...

I am glad that I have finished my March life-changing To Do's (until the wee hours this morning). And, a brand new month has started. I am walking like a zombie today due to lack of sleep but a friend whom I talked to this morning made me feel better. Whatever happens, it's part of God's plan. I always believe that. It is just that sometimes, when you get disappointed, you cannot help but sulked a little. But, a few weeks or months after, you will see the whole picture. God let "not so good" things happen so that another great thing will happen. We just need to learn to trust God with our all, all the time.