I am due soon.
And, I have this mixed emotions plaguing me. I am scared of the pain (yes, my single lady friends, childbirth is ultra painful! no sugar coating here!) and excited to see my new baby A. I am anxious that the finish line is so near yet I may have not run the race in the manner I should have done. For this pregnancy, I am too stressed, I've been eating a lot of junk (yes, the nearest decent resto in my workplace is McDo thus if I don't bring my home cooked food, I have to settle to an extra value meal), and I guess not exactly as careful as before.
Last night, I've been reminiscing my first childbirth experience. It's clearly etched in my mind how loud I was during the last hour of labor (that I am sure if my grip was not firm on pre's arm, he would have run out and disowned me). I can still hear myself say "I-CS nyo na ako!" during my second to the last push! Imagine that! I thought it could only happen in movies! Oh well, I think my doctor also had a hard time forgetting it that she's been telling me since my 6th month that she hopes the baby come out at 3Kg max (gave birth to Dawter T at 3.3kg - 7.65lbs).
I talked to Dawter A that I hope she comes out soon too. During my last checkup, my doc said that the baby is quite low and we just might get what we wish for. I am on my 35th week and in 2 week's time, I can give birth as the baby is considered full term then.
Now, if only I can keep my mouth shut during contractions. Pre has been urging me to take epidural. No way! I told him that I have endured it before, I am sure that it can bear it once more. With the Lord's help, of course!
And, I have this mixed emotions plaguing me. I am scared of the pain (yes, my single lady friends, childbirth is ultra painful! no sugar coating here!) and excited to see my new baby A. I am anxious that the finish line is so near yet I may have not run the race in the manner I should have done. For this pregnancy, I am too stressed, I've been eating a lot of junk (yes, the nearest decent resto in my workplace is McDo thus if I don't bring my home cooked food, I have to settle to an extra value meal), and I guess not exactly as careful as before.
Last night, I've been reminiscing my first childbirth experience. It's clearly etched in my mind how loud I was during the last hour of labor (that I am sure if my grip was not firm on pre's arm, he would have run out and disowned me). I can still hear myself say "I-CS nyo na ako!" during my second to the last push! Imagine that! I thought it could only happen in movies! Oh well, I think my doctor also had a hard time forgetting it that she's been telling me since my 6th month that she hopes the baby come out at 3Kg max (gave birth to Dawter T at 3.3kg - 7.65lbs).
I talked to Dawter A that I hope she comes out soon too. During my last checkup, my doc said that the baby is quite low and we just might get what we wish for. I am on my 35th week and in 2 week's time, I can give birth as the baby is considered full term then.
Now, if only I can keep my mouth shut during contractions. Pre has been urging me to take epidural. No way! I told him that I have endured it before, I am sure that it can bear it once more. With the Lord's help, of course!
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