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Mama

I have never been close to her. Maybe because we didn't get the chance to really get to know each other.

The only time we spent together was when I gave birth to Dawter T. Pre and I asked my parents to come so that they can see their first apo. It was not easy. Things that normally should have been smooth was not. My sister said that she's scared of me.

I dunno why. Does she think I hold grudge because they let me live with my daddy and mommy? I never once thought of that. For me, what happened was a blessing.

I wish I can get to know her. I had no problem with papa, maybe because he's outspoken. But, two people who are shy and wary is like oil and water. I honestly don't know how to talk to her or what to talk to her. Where do we start?

I think I will be given another chance this year. She might come when I give birth to my second. Hopefully, this time, something great will happen.

Happy Mother's Day, Mama!

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