Mind of a fickle

Lately, I've been in a black mood. You can even read about it from my previous posts. Since April came in, it seemed like I am strugging to keep it together, at home, at work and even at "play". It could be because of my long list of TO DOs... Which instead of getting shorter, it just seemed getting longer and longer. The "kiasu" in me wants to have to the list trimmed down so that I can breathe. And, it's not happening. Anyway... I finally acknowledged to myself that I cannot do it --- ALONE. I uttered a simple prayer while I was in bus travelling to work. "Lord, turn my life around, even a tiny bit". After that, I called Ate A and asked her to prepare. We're going to OZ embassy to get her visa. I was thinking that I haven't prayed enough, haven't asked the Lord enough for one wish to be granted. *insert smile here hehehe* While at work, I printed all the necessary documents and asked for time-off. Rushed to OZ embassy, there were a fe...

I am feeling more and more anxious as the day comes near. It's a month and a day till our initial entry. And, it's 7 days after when we leave Pre behind. It's definitely a big change! And we rest our cares with the Big Bro! It's just that Pre will miss a lot of happenings : 1. Bebi A's 6th birthday 2. His birthday 3. My birthday 4. Dawter T's 9th birthday 5. Dawter T's first communion 6. Bebi A's graduation and a lot more. Sabi nga niya, "tiis tiis muna". I know it'll be harder for him, he's all alone there with just our friends for company. Friends with kids who will remind him of the girls. There are times when I ask why we need to go through with this. But, the answer is always IT'S HIS PLAN. And, that's just what I should remember. We almost gave up on this yet He still gave us an affirmative answer with a very explicit sign. What more should I ask? Why question? We'll cross the bridge when we get there. (In our case, we...

We went to our usualy "Bisita Iglesia" (church visits). I am bit nostalgic that this could be the last year that we're visiting these churches here in Singapore. Moving on, we ended up at our parish --- St. Mary's. It's nice that I could get Dawter T to read the prayers though she's like an old lady who constantly needs to sit down hahaha As expected, it rained in the afternoon. I needed to write today. I planned to scrapbook but couldn't find the right papers yet. And, I am in a fix. I don't feel good at the moment. Hopefully, this will go away. Life has been giving me a lot to think about --- about being a better wife, a good mother, loving daughter and sister, dependable friend, a responsible employee and all the other roles I play in my life. One of those roles has been bugging me so much lately and I feel that I am getting tired. How I wish I can just start over and was different from the get-go. Things will probably be different. I g...