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The last week was very tiring for me. It was a test of wills, strength and patience.

I was on duty for one whole week. Duty at work. Mind you, it was only my 3rd week. I had to wake up early to go to work, and come back home, dead tired. I can only eatmy dinner, watch a little of my fave soaps (di pa rin pinatawad) and do a little ekek.I don't even see Bebi A awake. One night, I called home and talked to Dawter T, she saidshe will wait for me but as I rushed inside our room, I saw her sprawled and sleeping in ourbed. It was so disheartening. The two joys in my life were already sleeping and not ableto infuse some strength back to me.

I could have quit last week but I did not. Because it is my resolution to be firm.It has its moments when I get to solve cases which I didn't come across before. But, wasa little panic when servers crashed on me for two consecutive nights. This is what I have been telling myself before I made the move to this new job. I don't want to move when the times are tough because for sure, I will experience some rough times wherever I go. Tough times at work is not a reason to quit.

As I always tell myself, God knows when our hearts need encouragement. He'll make time for me to see my little ones. He'll make time for me to see Bebi A blowing kisses to me in the morning. He'll make time for Dawter T to walk with me to the lift and press the button. He'll make time.

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zlo23 said…
hang in there sooks! for sure, things will be better once you're settled in your new job =) if not, then QUIT! hehehe ;)

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