Mind of a fickle

As early as now I can see that my daughter will be a good "ate"... We were praying for Bebi Andi (oh well, the name is what Bebe T and I want), we were praying : "Please our baby, please give our baby two legs, two feet, 10 toes for her to walk, run, jump and stand" Hirit ni Bebe T, "Don't jump, Baby. Suka ka! Wahhhh (With matching "throw up action").

I lived with him for 22 years. Never did he lay a hand on me. Always look out for what's best for me. He was there when I failed and was there to cheer me on. How I miss him! I miss daddy. I can still remember his smile, that lights up his whole face. Times when we outrun each other to the room to get hold of the remote control first. How he made me loved basketball, tennis and golf. How Discovery Channel became interesting because he was there to explain it to me. It was a delight living with him. Even though we had our fare of rows. Still, I know how we deeply care for each other. Come to think of it, we're not even directly related. But he unselfishly took care of me. What a great heart! What a great man! Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Last night, pre told me that he had a talk with his boss regarding his contract. His boss is still keen on his services, yun nga lang if pre will take it, he has to shoulder 24% cpf. Ang laki nun! I still blessed though. As early as now ay praning na naman ako at mag-e-end ang contract nya. Pag inisip mo kasi a lot of things are going to happen mid to near end of the year. I will give birth to our 2nd child, then his contract will end on September, at syempre there will be some more unforeseen happenings. But, come to think of it. The Lord is already telling me not to worry so much. With the incident yesterday, it is really a way for Him to tell me that He has things in control and He will not forsake my family. Galing talaga ni Lord! God bless us all!

I forgot as to when it is ok to let the little bud inside me hear music (or when they can hear perhaps). Bebe #2 and I are listening to classical music. Pamparelak! Dahil walang ginagawang matino si Mommy sa opis (eto nga nagbla-blog e). During Dawter's time, I also did the same. Sometimes she'll kick hard, it is as if she's saying to me, I am having a blast! I hope Bebe #2 will also appreciate it and kick mommy harder!

Kaninang mga 930, nagpunta si dawter at si ate a sa palengke para bumili ng pang-ulam namin... Noong pipila na sila sa bilihan ng pork, bigla daw sumigaw si dawter ng "half-kilo belly, half kilo belly" Hahahaha... Pede ko na pala utusan magmarket si dawter!

Sa sobrang bored ko dito (eto ang pinakamahabang araw ko so far sa 2005) sa opis, wala akong ginawa kungdi magbasa sa yahoogroups, magbasa ng blog at kunwari tumitingin sa lotus notes email ko at kunwari nagdedelete ng mga dead mails... grabe, wala atang may problema ngayon sa mga email nila (syempre ako na ang may hawak --- huy wag ka mayabang, baka mamaya bago ka umuwi e may tumawag, mwahahaha!) eniweys, naisip ko lang na nakasakay pala ako ng eroplano nung 2004. nakapunta ako sa kota kinabalu at sa beijing... pero indi naman ako masyadong masaya kasi biz trip po ito at kasama si bituing walang ningning (bosing ko!)... di bale sana kung si pre ko at si dawter ang kasama ko hehehe tuwa lang ako at nakapunta ako sa mga lugar na yun... sa KK, almost every night kaming seafood dinner, ayoko na ngang tumingin sa hipon e... in perness, masarap at juicy... naglalaway tuloy ako... sa beijing, medyo may peace ako kasi parating wala si bituin, nambabae ata hahaha pero grabe ang stress ko sa wo...

Last Saturday, pre and I went to our OB. After the chit-chat was the scanning. We asked her though it's still quite early about the gender of baby #2... She tried to look for the "pututoy" but to no avail. It's either it's too small or it won't grow at all hehehe... What did I feel? After the scanning, I felt ok. But the more I thought about it. I panicked. I will have 2 girls by July and wouldn't be able to give a boy yet to pre. Though in truth, it's him giving me a boy! Hahaha... Just wish that the "pututoy" will grow and next OB visit will be a wonderful surprise. But, anyway, come to think of it, I am sure bebi T will be just as happy to have a little sister in tow. And, I am excited to find out! But as my sistah said, "nothing is impossible with God!"... So help me pray for a miracle!

Dami nangyari ng 2004. Daming blessings at syempre para pantay ay may heartaches din hehehe... 1. We were blessed na pareho kaming may work ni Pre ng 2004. 2. Ate L expressed her desire not to continue. So, mega hanap for replacement. 3. One of the great blessings we received this year was when we received the approval of our PR application last April (it took them only 3 weeks so siguro sabi nila, ay eto na naman ang pamilya goon, iapprove na nga natin 'to). 4. It also coincided with my sistah's first job-hunting visit to SG. Nag barbecue kami sa ECP with Ninong Mah's family to celebrate. At syempre clincher, hours before lumipad si Sistah ay kinonfirm ng isang company na tanggap sya. After 2 weeks, her ep was approved pero something happened e. Bigla na lang indi na kukunin si Sistah e nakabili na kami ng ticket for her. 5. Ate A told us that she would like to come here and take care of dawter. Solve na ang heartache at prob. 6. Birthdays namin ni pre. Tanda na kami pero ...

First working day of 2005 at alam nyo ba kung ano iniisip ko nung bago ako bumangon... "Gusto ko magleave!" Sarap! Lamig ng panahon, kasama ko buong araw si dawter tapos basa ng book, at kung ano ano pa... Pero bigla ko ba naman naalala na baka bumalik na sa bansang singkit yung isang manager namin bukas e nasa akin ang laptop nya. Hayyyy... Maghalf-day na lang kaya ako? Pede din... Mag-iinarte ba ako at sasabihing maysakit ako... Masakit naman puson ko kasi indi ako nakapag-number 2. *perils ng buntis* Hayyy bukas na lang kaya... e bigla po kami nagmeeting ni bosing bituin at dami nya concerns... Gusto ko naman pumapel dahil sinabi na ni bosing ikli buhok na resign na sya... Hmph! Gusto ko lang trusted employee ako for year 2005 --- in other words, gusto ko lang makasiguro na may trabaho ako this year hehehe hirap naman na sabay na naman kami ni pre na naghahanap ng work... Friday sana kaya lang imimeet daw kami ulit ni bosing bituin... Next week na lang siguro. Hmph! Tignan...