Mind of a fickle

It's my birthday today. I want it simple. I didn't want a party. I just want to eat pancit bihon which I will cook, fried pork and maybe, if luck (ehem Sister C) is with me, another Lana cake. All these came true. And, I wish to thank my family for it. There's just this incident which touched my heart and melted it. Around 4pm, I got a call from Dawter T, she asked me to spell Bebi A's name. I asked why, she said, she's making a birthday card for me. And it's supposedly a surprise. Oh ok, so much for the surprise. Around 5pm, I called home. I talked to her again. She said she's making a card with stars and that I shouldn't say it out loud coz it's a surprise. Haha. The difference it'll make to Dawter T. Anyway, fast forward to my arrival at home. Ate A told me that Dawter T has another surprise for me. She cleaned our bathroom with ------ tissue! She said that Dawter T told her that "she worked, and she worked and she worked!...

I have decided to start anew. Well, of course, there are things that I wouldn't want to change, things I couldn't change. What I like to do is change those that I can. For my plan to become effective, I need a very essential tool - DISCIPLINE. In my role as a wife. I will try to be more loving and caring. Period. In my role as a mother. I will spend more quality time with my two girls. Try to teach them good values that my elders have taught me. In my role as a homemaker. Clean up?!? In work. I will not whine. I will just do my job the best way I could never minding what others will say as long as my conscience is clear and my attitude right. No more ningas kugon. In my spiritual well-being. I will try to be more faithful in my prayer time. These are some things I have thought of. I am sure I'll think of some more later.

As you grow a year older, always remember that your 3 girls are always with you, to love and care for you. To give you joy, to share your heartaches. May God continue to bless you with good health and, may He also give you the desires of your heart. We love you!

The last week was very tiring for me. It was a test of wills, strength and patience. I was on duty for one whole week. Duty at work. Mind you, it was only my 3rd week. I had to wake up early to go to work, and come back home, dead tired. I can only eatmy dinner, watch a little of my fave soaps (di pa rin pinatawad) and do a little ekek.I don't even see Bebi A awake. One night, I called home and talked to Dawter T, she saidshe will wait for me but as I rushed inside our room, I saw her sprawled and sleeping in ourbed. It was so disheartening. The two joys in my life were already sleeping and not ableto infuse some strength back to me. I could have quit last week but I did not. Because it is my resolution to be firm.It has its moments when I get to solve cases which I didn't come across before. But, wasa little panic when servers crashed on me for two consecutive nights. This is what I have been telling myself before I made the move to this new job. I don't want t...