Being Lukewarm

I've been reading a book that one of my ex-colleagues gave me and it strucked me that I have gone a long way AWAY from what I used to be. It's so sad that the turmoil of my life (and 5 teleseryes at night hehehe) could cause this. Whereas once, I talk and breathe about my faith. I find it slipping away and I am really getting scared.

I really hope that I will be able to surpass all the trials that I am currently facing and just surrender everthing to Him who knows what's best for me. I feel His presence everytime I holler for Him but I want to go back to those times that I am with Him 24x7. When I talk and tell him my concerns and there's a voice that directs me to the right decisions.

I also noticed that I get so mad easily these days --- as if all the stress in the world is on my shoulder. I need to relax, not just workwise but also at home. I don't want to tip-toe anymore.

"Lord, guide me, fill me with your love everyday. So that I won't turn and walk away but go to the path that leads to you. Let me fall in love you each and every day. And, let me praise and worship you not just in words but in my actions, as well."