Mind of a fickle

On my 32nd week and getting back on that feeling where I am so sleepy and I could sleep anywhere.  Baby Bam Bam as I fondly call her, seemed to have obeyed Mommy and is in the right position already.  A lot can happen though but I hope that she stays there.  I can hear her hiccups and that assures me.  Another thing is, when I am feeling a bit on the down side, she constantly moves and lets me know "Hey, mommy, cheer up!"  Just like Dawter A who somehow knows when to hug me. We've started buying stuffs for Baby Bam Bam.  Hopefully, we can finish it off before she comes.  The next few weeks will be very busy with my work handover, with the upcoming vacation of my brother-in-law's family and of course, just day to day busyness.  I went back to walking from Flinders Street station all the way to my office because I've been eating a lot hahaha  I just seem to be hungry all the time.  Hope that helps regulate my blood sugar.

I am on my 30th week and we still don't have a name for the baby.  Hahaha.  If I am being objective, I'd probably deliver in 8 weeks.  A part of me wants to hold on to that feeling where my baby is still inside me and another part of me is very excited to hold her.  She is probably the third and last and throughout this pregnancy, I am not too sure if I had the chance to truly enjoy being one with her.  Makes me very sentimental. Since we found out late that I am expecting and then the series of news about my health.  It seemed that the focus shifted to the high blood pressure or the gestational diabetes instead of the baby.  Then, of course, been constantly thinking about food since I couldn't really eat much hahaha  I totally lost focus. Then, there are the fears of ineptness after the baby is born.  Total adjustment for the family.  But, nevertheless, I am very excited for her.  I can already feel the smell of her skin, the f...

I couldn't get a really comfortable sleep the past few nights.  I had to sleep on my left but after awhile, I get so tired doing that.  It's just a few more months though and I will bear it until I see our little one.  I am getting really excited about seeing the baby.  Will she look like Dawter T or Dawter A?  I know she will be spoiled rotten by the Ates.  I was so happy to find out that my sister in law kept one of my very important baby/maternity - my milk producing gadgets.  Just have to sterilize it when I receive it and I am ready to go.  I just can't find it in me to buy a new one when I knew I had one before.  Hehehe.  Good thing Ate A and Sis-in-Law kept it!  Whew!  One less thing to buy. I kept thinking of winter clothes for the baby and how to make sure we keep her warm during the winter months.  I guess she just have to be wrapped and swaddled.  Have you read my last post?  I have an update wit...

Last night, I got into a bit of panic.  I was thinking how would I take care of three girls.  Hehehe...  I was so used to having Ate A in Singapore that having 2 then was fairly easy.  I am a working mom.  I leave at before 7am.  How do I prepare the baby for child care?  I don't think Pre will be able to bathe the baby hahaha  So many things were running through my mind and I had to stop and breathe.  I asked Dawter A to hug me. Then I asked Dawter A.  "When the baby comes out, what are we going to do?" She answered, "You will take care of the baby and I will take care of the dog." It seemed so simple for her (and Oh so sneaky).  You see, we don't have a dog.  Hahaha. -o- On another note, I was able to convince Dawter T to talk to the baby.  She had to take a few moments to do it.  She's still icky talking to my tummy.  I wish she'd see and feel the baby move so that it will be come real to her....

I am at my 22nd week and getting bigger.  We found out that we're having another girl (woot!  woot!) though my husband is hoping for a miracle that the baby is a boy!  He said NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD (which is true!)  I am at my 16 units of insulin and seemed to have controlled my sugar level.  I've been failing in my diet.  I am just so hungry most of the time.  I think I can eat non-stop in one day. My little one is very active.  She seems to like music a lot and hearing Dawter T's voice.  It's so hard to sleep now.  I can't seem to find a comfortable position, to add to that are the warm weather we're having.  Not so conjusive for the pregnant.  Hehehe.

It has been a few weeks since I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes, I've moved on from just pricking my fingers 4 times a day to injecting insulin before I sleep.  I watched what I eat or cheat sometimes hahaha  (duhhh who could go without sugar???) I've been deprived from rice for about 3 weeks now.  I eat soup, bread, veggies and meat.  I feel like it's changing my life style.  I eat VERY frequent meals.  I walk a lot. Speaking of walking... One thing I look forward to during my walks was the after dinner walks with Dawter A.  We talked a lot about things, how our life will change when the baby's born, how she's gonna be an ate, how she wants to tell the whole world about the gender.  The only thing is once we come home, she gets very hungry and eats a lot hahaha

Bebe is now at 18 weeks.  Halfway there.  Seems too far away but getting excited as I feel him move --- those butterfly like movements makes me feel comforted that he's there.  Most of the time, I feel scared especially when I think of the things I did when I didn't know yet that I was pregnant.  I drank too much coffee, I took hayfever, cough meds.  I carried heavy boxes.  I ate too much sweets and chicheria. Everytime though, God imposes on me that I shouldn't let my fear get in the way.  My bebe is God's birthday gift to me.  Everything will be fine.